Walking By Faith

Can I say it's been a tough year for us. We've had a lot going on. I was pink slipped this spring, and because of policy change my district decided they were not going to call back by years of service but leave it up to administrators discretion. Ten classroom teachers at my school were given notice and due to budget cuts and a loss in enrollment there were only going to be 6 positions open at my school. The first 4 called back had their masters, I don't. Then 2 more were called back. I was not. I have been on 6 interviews in a week and needless to say I'm still unemployed for the fall. I know I am a good teacher, although I've been questioning that, but it's a tough market. It's very competitive. It's how it was in MI when we left. Sometimes I think it's my interview skills and other times I think I smoked the interview, but someone else just did better. Needless to say I'm frustrated and losing confidence in myself.


Eric and I have been praying about this for 2 months know trying to rely on faith. Most of the times I have not had a problem keeping the faith, if you will. God has always been faithful in his provisions, and I know it is dumb to doubt him, but man I get worn down. The reality of not being able to pay the bills is starting to weigh heavy on my heart. It's weird because after we had Emmett, we prayed and prayed that I would be able to stay home with him. Now we are praying and praying for a job. Kind of funny if you ask me. Good thing God knows what it best otherwise he might be confused. Maybe this is an answer to prayer just not the one we expected. I know we will be fine regardless of the outcome. We know God has it under control. I just need to remember that.


That's where we are right now. Frustrating as it is. We will see where the road leads our family because at this point....we have no clue!